I may be a little crazy but who isnt?
Posted by Anonymous on November 3, 2011 at 4:46 PM
Okay, so basically, I'm having a little trouble right now. Last November (on my birthday), my fiance and I (of a year and a half) broke up because I found out that he cheated on me. And that's just something that I'm really not a fan of, because every guy I've dated either cheated on or abused me, and I told myself that I was done with that stuff. Well, we were pretty serious (obviously, we were engaged) and then he decides to cheat on me because things are starting to "fizzle". So, you would think that after 11 months, I would be over this guy, right? Nope. I mean, I'm not like the crazy ex-girlfriend who goes and destroys everything he owns, just because he cheated on me. No, I'm more like the.. Wishing I could talk to him, missing his smile or the way he would look at me when he kissed me, kind of stuff. I mean, he's with the girl he cheated on me with, and for some reason that just really bothers me to no end. It's not that I'm not happy for him, because I am (kind of), I guess you could say it's a type of jealousy, that he's happy and has absolutely no guilt about what happened, and here I am trying to get over somebody that didn't really care about me. Sometimes, he texts me or messages me on Facebook, telling me that he's "sorry for what happened" and he "misses me" and "sometimes, when I look at my girlfriend, I wish it were you because nobody can make me as happy as you did". I'm not so sure how to take that, because I know how he really is. One minute it's all, "I miss you so much.." then the next it's, "I don't think we should be talking..." for fear of his girlfriend finding out. Which, I can kind of understand that. I don't know why it's taking me so long to get over him though. It's never taken me this long to get over an ex. Give me about a month and I've completely forgotten he exists. There's just something about this particular guy that I can't seem to forget and I know that I should, I'm just scared to, for some reason. I mean, I still get butterflies and sometimes even blush when I think about him. And I know, some of you women out there will tell me to grow up and get over it, blah blah blah. But sometimes, it's really hard to just "get over" somebody who you've shared and told EVERYTHING with. I've told him my deepest secrets that I've never even told my best friend or my parents. I really just don't know why it's taking me so long. Sometimes, I'll dream about him and wake myself up in tears because I know it's just a dream. I tell myself and my friends that I'm over him, but deep down I know I'm not. I just need some advice.. I know. Get over him is one piece of advice. But sometimes, that doesn't help a person out too much. I deleted his number, and off of Facebook, but it's still not helping any. Help, please?