I Thought I'd Love It...Again.
Posted by Anonymous on January 11, 2011 at 5:16 PM
I'm now in my third year of college, doing a third course, and the last two years I'e absolutely loved my courses and got on with the work load pretty well, but this year I'm so unbelievably behind already and have been trying to get back on my feet after so many things have already gone wrong this year that my new course just makes me stressed. I love the subject but as we get deeper into the course I've found that I love not being surrounded by the work of it even more. I want to continue in college, but I don't like the course I'm on at all. I miss doing the art course I did in the first year, because even when I was struggling with coursework I was doing fine and could pick myself back up again. This year I'm on anti-depressants, waiting for a court case to develope, and going through a little family drama. I'm not a part of the drama, but it surrounds me and I hate it because I can't do anything about it.
I'm currently in a relationship with a hard working, intelligent, optimistic, funny, cute, sweet, caring, kind, out-going, A*-grade guy who aspires to be a college lecturer in politics, is completing his final year of college and wishes to go to the University of Cambridge, which is one of the top uni's in my country. When I'm around him I have no stress, no worries, not sadness and nothing bothers me, I've told him how I feel about college this year and he says that he's willing to help me, but he has enough to do.
I want to drop out, get a job and re-apply for next year to take a two year, fine art course. He thinks that I should finish up the year, try my best and see how I get on, he says that if I'm still miserable on it then I should re-apply.
What do you think I should do?