I had to put one of my cats to sleep two years ago. He was nine years old and had late stage cancer that we didn't catch until it was too late. I cried like a baby. I was so upset that I actually didn't go to school the next day. Nothing really helped. We got two new kittens a couple days later, but playing with them just reminded me of Mr. Pixel (my cat, RIP). The only thing that really helped was time. And I still miss him. He was the sweetest cat. Even thinking of him now is making me tear up.

So I would like to give you some advice, but the only thing that I can say is that the ache will lessen with time. You'll never stop missing her, but gradually, the pain will fade and you'll be left with the good memories of her.

The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow frail and weak,

And pain should keep me from my sleep,

Then will you do what must be done,

For this, the last battle, can't be won.

You will be sad I understand,

But don't let grief then stay your hand,

For on this day, more than the rest,

Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,

You wouldn't want me to suffer so.

When the time comes, please, let me go.

Take me to where to my needs they'll tend,

Only, stay with me till the end

And hold me firm and speak to me,

Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree,

It is a kindness you do to me.

Although my tail its last has waved,

From pain and suffering I have been saved.

Don't grieve that it must be you,

Who has to decide this thing to do;

We've been so close,we two, these years,

Don't let your heart hold any tears.

I had a kitten , named matilda.. had her for about 4 months, I found her when i was at a party.. sitting out side.. and i moved house, and she got out and got hit by a car. i was soo attatched to her.. i still miss her .. i no its not the same story as urs.. she wasnt sick.. but i still couldnt get over her.. and finally i just decided id get a kitten.. i ended up getting 2 , they were so gawjus.. i still havnt forgotton about matilda. still miss her.. but its the best way to take your cat off ur mind.

XX

I have had to put down numerous animals. We consider all of them family and it never gets any easier. The most recent one we had to put to sleep was Nermil, she had a brain tumor and she was unable to function normally or even walk.
I loved her soooo much and it broke my heart when we had to put her down. I spent like a week crying about it.
But it gets better with time, you have to remember they lived a long and happy life and it was good that you put her to sleep. If you hadn't she would have been suffering from the pain of the cancer, you put her at peace.
Eventually, after a few weeks or so you won't feel so hurt, you will always miss them but it just takes time to heal. And soon you will be able to look at a picture of them and not have to cry.
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I agree wtih Sarah above. You have to think of the good life you gave them. You'll never forget about them and they'll always be with you. I lost my first cat about 6 years ago who we had for over 10 years and I still think of her. It was 2 years before I got another cat when I felt ready and the house felt empty without one around. You just have to feel what you feel, you can't repress your emotions and time does help. It also helps to remember that they're in a happy place. Hope your pain eases. Keep strong.

my cat had to be put down it was 6 years ago now n i still remember that day it still make me cry, i had grown up with my cat his name was Dizzy he was perfect but he had kidney failure and he kept having an injections to keep him going to make him feel better but because his kidneys weren't working properly basically he was slowly getting blood poisoning from all the toxins that weren't coming out. he got gradually worse he couldn't do things that he used to do and one day he was bad so i said goodbye to him at home n my mum n dad went to the vets n they came back without him. i was devastated i cried loads but all i knew is that i couldnt live without any cats becuase there was a part missing from me so i had to get another cat so my mum n dad looked for a months to find some that would be perfect for me and well on the 6ht of march 6 years ago they got me 2 cats it wasn't planed that we would get 2. I know that they can never replace Dizzy but they are still part of my family and i love them so much.

thats my story but everyone deals with loosing animals in different ways and no matter if you get a new cat u will always love the the cat u had before. xx

I had a Schnauzer/terrier mix named Pepper for around 11 years, and we had to put her down two Septembers ago. She was blind, most likely completely deaf, had dimensia, and she had kidney disease. We had to take her into the vet a few times a week for dialysis. She got to the point where she wouldn't sleep soundly at night because she'd have accidents, try to move, but her hind legs couldn't move from all the uremic backup she had in her legs from her kidneys, get herself stuck in an uncomfortable position, and forget where she was. We put towels all over the floor to keep her from doing it, but it wouldn't help. She'd start crying and we wouldn't get any sleep. The only time she ever calmed down was when someone held her and cradled her like a baby. The hardest thing to see was that we had to give her sedatives and painkillers to giver her peace. I remember the last night we had her she literally fell asleep in my arms. She had never ONCE tolerated being held, and that's how we knew it was time. The next day we took her to the vet, and she died in my arms. I held her until we buried her. We felt cheated out of time with her because small mutts live a lot longer than purebreds, and she was supposedly only 12. We're pretty sure the pound we got her from lied about her age when we adopted her, and she was probably around 4 or 5. Looking back, I don't think we should have let her suffer for so long. She was just so far gone, and she just wasn't our Pepper anymore. It still hurts to think about it, and I'm tearing up just writing this. What I'm trying to say is that you did the right thing. My friend had to put her cat Tabby down not too long ago, and they had just learned earlier that week she had a very aggressive cancer that would have given her a month to live, and she would have been in pain. She wasn't very old.
I don't know if there's anything that makes it easier, other than time. Even almost 2 years after putting her down, it still hurts. But not as much. Just try to take some peace in how much good you did for your cat. You did the right thing, and we're proud of you. That's one of the hardest things anyone could ever do.

I think what you should do is move on and just buy some new kittens......