Many people might judge those who have even been in an experience like this, but I need some help, not criticism. I have been with my boyfriend for 8 months now, and I felt the love was strong. After months of feeling like things were fading, I worked hard to keep them strong. I was willing to give him everything but he kept pushing me away, but I still stayed together with him in a relationship. While I was feeling hurt and emotionally neglected, I turned to an old flame to talk to, originally intending to keep a friendship with him, because he was an amazing person. My feelings for him rekindled and now I feel strongly for him instead of my boyfriend. My boyfriend has been feeling that things have been different and now is working so hard to win my heart back, and apologize for the things he has done to me. I feel stronger for the guy I am having this emotional affair with, and he is by far more mature and understanding of me than my current boyfriend. I know it it selfish of me to feel like emotionally to keep two guys, but I'm scared to get involved with my old flame because I have to start an entirely new relationship and re-learn another person. I love both of these guys, but I don't know what to do. Should I stay and re-fix my broken romance with my boyfriend, or go with my old flame who can offer me something better than what I have?