Recently I've begun to feel like my life is spiraling more and more out of control. I feel like I need some kind of release. It's something like when you're sitting in bed at night, unable to sleep, and just feel the weight of the world on your shoulders. --The thing is, it's like that all the time now. About a month ago, I found out I can't afford to go to the college I was hoping to go to and now I need to either go to a community college for something I don't really want to do or just not go at all. Because of this, I feel like I'm destined for failure and don't know how to cope, so I'm angry or depressed all the time. It's not only that though. Everything seems to be building up and I can't stop it. I feel myself giving up and letting go, deep in my soul somewhere and I can't stop it though I want to. I realize some of these feelings are completely ludicrous but even though I tell myself that and try and push past it, I can't. I feel so wound up, I'm ready to break. I tried talking to my boyfriend about it, but he just reassures me I'll be okay in a little bit, I just need time-- but I feel like he's trying to reassure himself just as much as me. It doesn't work though. It makes me feel better for a little bit, but then I feel lost again. My question it, how can I deal with this? Am I have a midlife crisis way early? I don't even know if this is a normal thing to happen in someone's life.