I've got nobody else but you ladies. To be honest I'm only 15 years old. I feel pathetic by posting this on the internet... but I feel I have nowhere else to turn. I've been acting withdrawn lately. I feel sad all the time and I don't know when the last time I genuinely smiled was. I live with my mom who is single and my 2 younger brothers. I feel like I'm becoming depressed. I want to talk to my mom about to see if I could maybe see a doctor to get help... but my mom has this outrageous temper with me and I'm afraid she'll take my feelings as a joke or try to make me feel bad for being sad in the first place. I've even considered calling a hotline... but I'm afraid my mother will see the number on the phone and react in a negative way. I honestly don't want to feel this way. I want to be happy again and social... but I've just completely lost interest. I spend all day sitting on the computer or the couch just staring at a blank TV. I cry all the time now. I can't seem to stay asleep either. I CAN fall asleep... I just wake up so many times during the night. Like I said, I want to see a doctor to get help... but my mom.... I don't know what to do about it. Does anyone know either how I should go about talking to my mom about it... or maybe ways to try and treat this myself? Without taking prescriptions or seeing a psychiatrist? Please take me seriously, I know I'm only 15... but my feelings are real and I feel I've run out of options. Your help is appreciated.