How do you ever truly get over your first? It's something every woman has had to go through I know, but of course the experience is different for everybody. So, back in may of 2010 I met this guy through my friend, and we hit it off right away. We began texting and talking on the phone a few nights week, and things were progressing nicely. But, by the second time we hung out we ended up having sex. It was my first time, but definitely not his. I never suspected things to change after that night, but of course they did. He didn't speak to me for about a month after that. But, when he finally did come back around I was sucked back into his game. I knew from that point that it was all about the sex with him. Whenever we spent time together after that, we always had sex. I knew that it was wrong, but I guess I was setting myself up for pain. Eventually it all broke apart, and he started talking crap about me to his friends, and even to my best friend who happens to work with him. He also lied to me about being clean, and ended up giving me an STI. It's all cleared up now, but he then proceeded to tell everyone we knew that it was me who gave it to him.
So that all happened about a month ago, and as horrible as he was to me, I still find myself missing him. Is it because he was my first? I've tried going out with other guys, but that always turns out to be a disaster. I know this is going to take time, but if anyone can give me any advice on how to make it a little bit easier it would be amazing.